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After Kirkwall- Not just a nightmare by Cocoz42 After Kirkwall- Not just a nightmare by Cocoz42
I suffered severe PTSD from this game...my plan is to draw three pieces of these...hopefully I can finish them.
It seems that I need to state my intention of this piece. Of course I understand many people don't like Anders at all, so they won't be upset about the ending. I did this painting because I like him for who he was, and feel sad and angry for who he is...Call me Mary Sue, I did get hurt by how the story went, and I can't do anything to change it or prevent it. It's sad that the situation forced you to make the calls. When every answer is killing him in the end, I can't do it, this is the only difference I can make in this game. 
However I think not killing Anders is selfish somehow. I can't image how somebody keeps living with that guilt and with his love loves him from mercy... It seems hopeless. Maybe letting him die is  more mercy. I can't decide for him.
I want a way out from this PTSD the game give me, and yes, it's ridiculous to be so serious about it. This painting is step one of getting better, that's all I need to state.

Second one has been finished today, check here【nude/sex content alert】darth-coco.deviantart.com/art/…
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Mihoshi5 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014
Amazing art :la:
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Cocoz42 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you very much :)
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Mihoshi5 Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2014
You're welcome :aww:
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Beautiful-Doubt Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I feel the same. Anders is always what I choose. <3
I have played this game 10 times and i still ugh. I can't kill him. He just wanted to help and he became this tormented abomination...He can't even drink anymore :( I wish there was an actual way to separate him and justice...
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Cocoz42 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot. I would like to play Awaken resent
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Beautiful-Doubt Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
the DAO DLC? Awakening?
Anders was a bit loftier in it. he didnt have such a big burden and still in love with cats XD It never actually says that he lets justic inside him in awakening. thats something that happened after awakening and before 2.
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StrawberryTeddy Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I absolutely love this, it's beautiful! Personally, I loved the development of his character and how much taking in Justice changed him. I also completely condone and agree with his choices in DA2, to be completely honest. War was inevitable. Sure, Elthina died, but she was in no way innocent in my eyes;the Templars are just a military branch of the chantry and she did nothing to stop oppression while she was in an influential position. And, those who condone oppression are just as bad as the oppressors- she was too complacent. This piece is beautiful, absolutely love it!
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sabresedge Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2014
Took the words out of my mouth. I have problems siding with the Templars. And a war was going to happen. Elthina was one of the casualties. And apathy is just as bad. She could have done something! Even if it wasn't huge sweeping gestures but she did nothing! Pointedly. All throughout origins and awakening I was thinking that mages were severely mistreated. And I was hoping that something would happen to provoke change and take the chantry and Templars power away. I really don't like the chantry and templars. It isn't the religion that I don't like it is the control and power and army, ARMY that they lure over people. Anyway enough ranting


And this is from the wikia said "Jennifer Hepler describes the choice of keeping Anders alive as "poetic justice", as he would have to face and suffer the knowledge of the lives he took. She also states her belief that he wishes death so that the people whom he killed receive justice as well."
dragonage.wikia.com/wiki/Ander…
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StrawberryTeddy Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I agree! Elthina could have done anything, and neutrality when there is a power imbalance is not true neutrality-it's choosing the side of those in power. I can't stand the Chantry. I don't really like the templars, but there is also the problem that they literally start indoctrinating some templars when they are children, and the Chantry holding a monopoly on lyrium trade doesn't allow templars to speak out against their superiors because they'll go "insane" without it. It's just a really, really shitty situation for all those involved, and while mages get bullet, the gun really recoils hard, especially on nonandrastians. Taking the chantry out of a position of political power would be extremely beneficial for Thedas and since the war was going to happen no matter what, I believe Anders only sped the vote  that started the war up, and in the long term less lives would be negatively effected because of it.   

I wish I could say I'm surprised that Hepler said that first part. I really don't like her and her treatment of Anders. He and his romance,as she said, were written as rivalmance was the /one true path/. Which is really, really shitty considering the rivalmances themselves as a whole, are essentially glorified abuse.  Not to mention that Anders was written to represent mental illness, and the whole idea of a mercy killing rubs me so wrong at the thought, as a mentally ill person. And if you're his friend at the end of DA2 he is relieved that Hawke doesn't kill him, which makes a lot of sense considering he isn't being  belittled and ignored to the same extent as he is when rivalmanced.

There are a lot of things I could nitpick about Anders,his attitude toward Velanna,consistent probing of Fenris(which is so ironic since they're alike), or the way he treats Merril because of her blood magic, but personally his actions are not one of them.
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sabresedge Featured By Owner Edited Nov 20, 2014
i actually liked what helper said about him. Keeping him alive means he has to continue what he started and try to clean up the mess he made (whetherthe mess was needed or not).

Its the politics and power the chantry has that i don't like. Not the religion itselfs. I think they need a big reformation. ...Anyway.

I haven't seen or read anything about the core being rivalmance or the mental illness. So I don't know anything there.

Personally mine was a friendmance. And I kept my hawk and anders together.

I am injoying playing Inquisition at the moment.
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