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After Kirkwall- Not just a nightmare by Cocoz42 After Kirkwall- Not just a nightmare by Cocoz42
I suffered severe PTSD from this plan is to draw three pieces of these...hopefully I can finish them.
It seems that I need to state my intention of this piece. Of course I understand many people don't like Anders at all, so they won't be upset about the ending. I did this painting because I like him for who he was, and feel sad and angry for who he is...Call me Mary Sue, I did get hurt by how the story went, and I can't do anything to change it or prevent it. It's sad that the situation forced you to make the calls. When every answer is killing him in the end, I can't do it, this is the only difference I can make in this game. 
However I think not killing Anders is selfish somehow. I can't image how somebody keeps living with that guilt and with his love loves him from mercy... It seems hopeless. Maybe letting him die is  more mercy. I can't decide for him.
I want a way out from this PTSD the game give me, and yes, it's ridiculous to be so serious about it. This painting is step one of getting better, that's all I need to state.

Second one has been finished today, check here【nude/sex content alert】…
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Beautiful-Doubt Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I feel the same. Anders is always what I choose. <3
I have played this game 10 times and i still ugh. I can't kill him. He just wanted to help and he became this tormented abomination...He can't even drink anymore :( I wish there was an actual way to separate him and justice...
Cocoz42 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot. I would like to play Awaken resent
Beautiful-Doubt Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
the DAO DLC? Awakening?
Anders was a bit loftier in it. he didnt have such a big burden and still in love with cats XD It never actually says that he lets justic inside him in awakening. thats something that happened after awakening and before 2.
StrawberryTeddy Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I absolutely love this, it's beautiful! Personally, I loved the development of his character and how much taking in Justice changed him. I also completely condone and agree with his choices in DA2, to be completely honest. War was inevitable. Sure, Elthina died, but she was in no way innocent in my eyes;the Templars are just a military branch of the chantry and she did nothing to stop oppression while she was in an influential position. And, those who condone oppression are just as bad as the oppressors- she was too complacent. This piece is beautiful, absolutely love it!
Cocoz42 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you very much. :)
Ioana-Muresan Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
A good game or a good story, is that one that manages to make you cry and suffer at the end.
Playing this game gave me depression, that lasted very shortly.  god damn it anders...

i dose feel like in this game you don't have so many options like in the original 
Cocoz42 Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the comment, and let's wait for Inquisition.
AzureMosquito Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh god this is so powerful and beautiful. I love Anders so much and I constantly struggle with the emotions over who he used to be and what he became. Thank you for making this beautiful piece of art.
Cocoz42 Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:] Thank you very much. I'm afraid that I can't love anyone else in Dragon Age world.
ebenbrooks Featured By Owner May 14, 2014  Professional Photographer
I got to really liking Anders in Dragon Age: Awakening. And Justice, too. I ... really didn't like what they did with them in II. It made sense that Anders would try to help Justice in that way, but it didn't really make sense that Justice would be so corrupted by it. I'm conflicted, though, because two of my good friends were working as writers at BioWare at the time, and ... I think one of them may have been responsible. I've never asked, 'cause part of me doesn't want to know.
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